Day 487

Our minds can protect us without us even knowing it– that’s what I learned today

It’s 8: 51 PM on day 487 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, prepare and publish my Disability of the Day feature, practice typing with both hands feed myself sausages for breakfast, watch TV, tweet with people – I love talking to people from different walks of life – feed myself rice and curry for lunch, watch some more TV and go to my cousin’s mother-in-law’s memorial service.

Today I awoke to the sounds of my parents yelling at each other – my father was calling my mother bitch and saying that their wedding was nothing more than a ceremony – and while usually I would try to break up the fight by saying something like mom I need some water this time I just said – in my head – Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever. Amen. added please don’t let Kevin – my eleven-year-old brother – wake up he doesn’t need to hear this and proceeded to transport myself –in my mind – to the Eiffel Tower in Paris and the Big Ben in London – whenever I’m faced with things that I would rather not hear or see I automatically disconnect my mind from my body so that when it’s over I can go with my life physiatrists and psychologists call it disassociation (Note to all my family members who might read this: it is not my intention to make mommy and daddy look bad I am just writing about my experience I can’t help that they were a part of that experience if you can’t understand that you are free to leave this blog and never return). Have you ever been in a situation where you had to jump out of your body for a while to protect your sanity?

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Stan’s very sweet for saying so, but feel free to write what reflects you best.

Thanks to all my friends out there who are helping me make my dream come true: to make a better world for all of us!