Day 618

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone.

–Lyrics from the song Stronger  written by
Jörgen Elofsson, Ali Tamposi, David Gamson and Greg Kurstin and sung by Kelly Clarkson

It’s 3 : 48  PM on day 618 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to  brush my teeth,  drink Green Tea  by myself,  feed myself Oats  for breakfast,    exercise my right hand –  I  cut  pieces of my sandwich into smaller pieces using a knife with my right hand just a  few more practice sessions and I’ll be able to eat with a fork and knife I am SO PROUD of me  – and publish my Disability of the Day feature.

This morning I had a bit of meltdown my mother told me I only had five minutes in the bathroom because she was late for work when I tried to negotiate for a bit more time she got irritated and said for the millionth time in my lifetime I’ve been suffering for the past 10 to 20 years to which I said getting choked up if you feel this way imagine how I feel I’m the one trapped in my own body then when I got out of the bathroom my dad who usually doesn’t speak more than a couple of sentences to me daily asked why are you crying which really made cry but now that a few hours have passed since the incident I realize that I can either be bitter or better because of my parents and I choose to be better I will never blame someone for something they have no control over because my mother blames me for her suffering and I will never discriminate against anyone because I feel like my father discriminates against me. Has what you’ve been through in the past made you bitter or better?